MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:14:23 AM)
ni zuo tian de zhen yang?
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:14:29 AM)
hai hao ma?
Lysia says: (1:14:54 AM)
oh ni zuo tian ye you kao shi?
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:15:00 AM)
dui
Lysia says: (1:15:02 AM)
wo de hai okay
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:15:05 AM)
zao shang
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:15:21 AM)
stupid methods
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:15:24 AM)
wo hen tao yan
Lysia says: (1:15:49 AM)
dan shi hao xiang hen rong yi suo yi hui bei na ge ling wan (bell curve) hai si
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:16:05 AM)
wo de ye shi!
Lysia says: (1:16:15 AM)
ta ma de...
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:16:18 AM)
wo mei you study dao hen thorough
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:16:24 AM)
dan wo jue de hai okay
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:16:30 AM)
da jia ye jue de okay
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:16:39 AM)
jiu shi yao bei bell curve le lor ):
hilarious
love her to bits
ni zuo tian de zhen yang?
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:14:29 AM)
hai hao ma?
Lysia says: (1:14:54 AM)
oh ni zuo tian ye you kao shi?
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:15:00 AM)
dui
Lysia says: (1:15:02 AM)
wo de hai okay
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:15:05 AM)
zao shang
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:15:21 AM)
stupid methods
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:15:24 AM)
wo hen tao yan
Lysia says: (1:15:49 AM)
dan shi hao xiang hen rong yi suo yi hui bei na ge ling wan (bell curve) hai si
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:16:05 AM)
wo de ye shi!
Lysia says: (1:16:15 AM)
ta ma de...
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:16:18 AM)
wo mei you study dao hen thorough
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:16:24 AM)
dan wo jue de hai okay
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:16:30 AM)
da jia ye jue de okay
MARTINA/ i'd give anything but i won't give up. says: (1:16:39 AM)
jiu shi yao bei bell curve le lor ):
hilarious
love her to bits
all that matters, is today(: -
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
I am relishing in joy I am just happy happy happy I don't know why and I can't imagine why either since exams are on Saturday and I'm not nearly half done for any of my modules and I recently learnt of unpleasant things not to mention being unhappy jane for silly reasons but oh oh oh I'm just bright and shiny today I guess it won over my usual dark and twisted alter ego.
Destiny is calling me
Belting out the killers is so awesomely therapeutic right until the point where your neighbour screams your name for you to shut up and stop being a nuisance but I think despite having the KTV toadprince reputation it was still worth it, right? The song is still stuck in my head and the mister brightside label is going to stick like uhu glue as well unfortunately (haha) it's not like I can get away with it either but oh well I have my big (goofy) serious specs to hide behind!
Open up my eager eyes
Sleep is a chore when alarm clocks give you painful bruises yet never seem to really be useful cause in the end you just hit the snooze button, especially on rainy days (Sunday morning rain is falling, steal some covers share some skin) and lazy afternoons. But it helped me take my mind off everything and I'm back to being all smiles, I'm glad, even if it's just for a day.
I'm Mr. Brightside
I am relishing in joy I am just happy happy happy I don't know why and I can't imagine why either since exams are on Saturday and I'm not nearly half done for any of my modules and I recently learnt of unpleasant things not to mention being unhappy jane for silly reasons but oh oh oh I'm just bright and shiny today I guess it won over my usual dark and twisted alter ego.
Destiny is calling me
Belting out the killers is so awesomely therapeutic right until the point where your neighbour screams your name for you to shut up and stop being a nuisance but I think despite having the KTV toadprince reputation it was still worth it, right? The song is still stuck in my head and the mister brightside label is going to stick like uhu glue as well unfortunately (haha) it's not like I can get away with it either but oh well I have my big (goofy) serious specs to hide behind!
Open up my eager eyes
Sleep is a chore when alarm clocks give you painful bruises yet never seem to really be useful cause in the end you just hit the snooze button, especially on rainy days (Sunday morning rain is falling, steal some covers share some skin) and lazy afternoons. But it helped me take my mind off everything and I'm back to being all smiles, I'm glad, even if it's just for a day.
I'm Mr. Brightside
all that matters, is today(: -
there is one kind
i don't understand them and don't want to even try cause it's a waste of time and emotional effort. they are the same kind of hopeless and clueless, inadequate and awkward. i can't fathom the density (are we human or are we denser?) so why not just go with the flow. getting used to the disappointment, it's called habituation. it just takes one to make the difference! i'm waiting here with my foot outstretched but they are all cases of too's - too big too small too high too low, where's my right fit?
i'm not meant to find that glass slipper
The Theory of Being Left On The Shelf
i don't understand them and don't want to even try cause it's a waste of time and emotional effort. they are the same kind of hopeless and clueless, inadequate and awkward. i can't fathom the density (are we human or are we denser?) so why not just go with the flow. getting used to the disappointment, it's called habituation. it just takes one to make the difference! i'm waiting here with my foot outstretched but they are all cases of too's - too big too small too high too low, where's my right fit?
i'm not meant to find that glass slipper
The Theory of Being Left On The Shelf
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i think i'm on drugs
all that matters, is today(: -
instead of posting on HY2243 forum i'm updating this unlikely little rut with a concert of my thoughts, douse it with some of me essence when i'm in need of a virtual escape
i would like to go to sleep for a 100 years because all the knots i'm facing are impossible to untangle and are cumulatively driving me over cliff, off the deep end.
i am in dire need of a reason to believe in something good again because my serotonin levels are dangerously low and so hang the grey grey clouds
Love, save the empty, please, because chocolates are cheap and they don't last the day
i would like to go to sleep for a 100 years because all the knots i'm facing are impossible to untangle and are cumulatively driving me over cliff, off the deep end.
i am in dire need of a reason to believe in something good again because my serotonin levels are dangerously low and so hang the grey grey clouds
Love, save the empty, please, because chocolates are cheap and they don't last the day
all that matters, is today(: -
I took a look at myself - nothing inside
Except for cigarettes and wine where there should be a life
You've been watching me for a while and you like what you see.
It's in the eyes of the beholder, now give them to me.
Give me your eyes so I can see me straight
Except for cigarettes and wine where there should be a life
You've been watching me for a while and you like what you see.
It's in the eyes of the beholder, now give them to me.
Give me your eyes so I can see me straight
all that matters, is today(: -
There's a life across the river that was meant for me
Instead I live my life in constant misery
There's a life across the river but I do not see
Why I should please those who will never be pleased
There's a boy across the river with short black curly hair
He wants to be my lover and I want to be his peer
There's a boy across the river, but alas I cannot swim
And I never will get to put my arms around him
And I'm sorry to which ever man should meet my sorry state,
Watch my steady lonesome gait and be aware.
I will never love a man,'cause love and pain go hand in hand
And I can't do it, again.
Instead I live my life in constant misery
There's a life across the river but I do not see
Why I should please those who will never be pleased
There's a boy across the river with short black curly hair
He wants to be my lover and I want to be his peer
There's a boy across the river, but alas I cannot swim
And I never will get to put my arms around him
And I'm sorry to which ever man should meet my sorry state,
Watch my steady lonesome gait and be aware.
I will never love a man,'cause love and pain go hand in hand
And I can't do it, again.
all that matters, is today(: -
We're losing hope, so we invest in dope
to feel our vacant feelings
If I only knew your name I'd go from door to door
You wrote your number on my hand but it came off in the rain
to feel our vacant feelings
If I only knew your name I'd go from door to door
You wrote your number on my hand but it came off in the rain
all that matters, is today(: -
it just hit me that all my good friends would have (poof) gone to SEPland next semester
& i thought this sem was lonely enough
new found glory's all downhill from here is the soundtrack of my hermit life story
cadbury, kinder bueno..move over!
i'm addicted to reese's peanut butter cup (: (:
even though it just perpetuates my sorethroat indefinitely
kwhwoieurs,dfkjhdfgkjhdgkjcough
& i thought this sem was lonely enough
new found glory's all downhill from here is the soundtrack of my hermit life story
cadbury, kinder bueno..move over!
i'm addicted to reese's peanut butter cup (: (:
even though it just perpetuates my sorethroat indefinitely
kwhwoieurs,dfkjhdfgkjhdgkjcough
all that matters, is today(: -
it is a little strange that lecture was on interpersonal attraction and those confusing variations of love, just when i was about to give up on it all. sure, i wear it on my finger all the time but it's never felt so elusive before. i still strongly believe that girls like us don't make the rules, we just play by them and toe the line.
here's a tribute to summer and tom,
who were so lovely together but never will be
♥
all that matters, is today(: -
やってしまったことは元に戻らない
What's done is done and cannot be undone
What's done is done and cannot be undone
all that matters, is today(: -
Each morning I get up I die a little, can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry, living just to find emotion
Having a heart beaten down, a mind watered down,
Footprints stepped on by someone else
Take a look in the mirror and cry, living just to find emotion
Having a heart beaten down, a mind watered down,
Footprints stepped on by someone else
all that matters, is today(: -
このウェブサイトはにぎやかになった。違う、煩いよね？外の人あって、あまり..
今晩家族と皆で一緒に家の近くご飯食べに行って、話したり、兄見たり、彼にアメリカの生活の質問聞いたりする。私も楽しみよ
来週たくさん用事あるから、あまり時間ない。皆も忙しい？水曜日は父の誕生日けど、兄の卒業式あってから、火曜日に祝する(ケーキわすれないで)。遅いレクチャーあるけど、大丈夫かな..
最近あまりうれしくない事あって、気持ちあまりよくない..どうしよかな？教えてください風さま。兄と話しないと..その後でうれしになるねぇ
ℒ
all that matters, is today(: -
I love being held. I love when I am in someone's arms, and I know that they would do anything for me. I love waking up to someone and smiling and having them smile back. When you are cold, and you are sharing a blanket and you have their sweatshirt on. your hair is all a mess and your breath smells and you nuzzle up to their neck and they nuzzle you back and wrap their arms around you, and you smile. And fall right back asleep.
I love walking into a room and he smiles back at you, you work your way over, making googiley eyes just for fun until you reach him, and then he wraps you in a big hug and you say hi and act like you haven’t seen each other in ages. That is a great feeling.
Feeling the rush of his lips trail down your body, covering every spot of skin. Giving in to him, giving him what you both want. Feeling like one. Knowing your love will not fade. Knowing giving him that will make him keep you forever, just as you want.
The happy moments, the secret smiles. Going out with his family and saying something they don’t get, but he gives me that look that tells me he got it and he found it funny. Him telling me how beautiful I am in front of his family. Them looking at us and seeing how much we adore each other. The feeling of pride when his mom tells me she is happy her son has found someone so worth his love.
The tears after a big fight. And then him rushing over to dry them with kisses, not being able to sleep until he knows I am better.
The silent way people drift apart, the way the secret smiles fade. The fights end in crying with no one to hold you. the way your world seems to collapse, but you know this isn’t the way its supposed to be.
Yelling at him to fix it, even though you know you did more damage than he did.
After the break up, the feeling of betray as you look at another guy. Knowing you shouldn’t be looking, you don’t belong to them. knowing he still doesn’t look at anyone but you.
When you hang out, the way his eyes watch yours, the way they say sorry, the way you know he wants to kiss you and make all the pain go away. Trying your hardest not to cry because he refuses to become a couple together.
Being completely in love with him. and him with you.
Being best friends.
Him thinking he is not good enough, so he wants you to find someone that is.
You refusing to find someone else because you want him.
The complications. The tears. The heartache.
The feeling of love through it all.
Exact Abstract
I love walking into a room and he smiles back at you, you work your way over, making googiley eyes just for fun until you reach him, and then he wraps you in a big hug and you say hi and act like you haven’t seen each other in ages. That is a great feeling.
Feeling the rush of his lips trail down your body, covering every spot of skin. Giving in to him, giving him what you both want. Feeling like one. Knowing your love will not fade. Knowing giving him that will make him keep you forever, just as you want.
The happy moments, the secret smiles. Going out with his family and saying something they don’t get, but he gives me that look that tells me he got it and he found it funny. Him telling me how beautiful I am in front of his family. Them looking at us and seeing how much we adore each other. The feeling of pride when his mom tells me she is happy her son has found someone so worth his love.
The tears after a big fight. And then him rushing over to dry them with kisses, not being able to sleep until he knows I am better.
The silent way people drift apart, the way the secret smiles fade. The fights end in crying with no one to hold you. the way your world seems to collapse, but you know this isn’t the way its supposed to be.
Yelling at him to fix it, even though you know you did more damage than he did.
After the break up, the feeling of betray as you look at another guy. Knowing you shouldn’t be looking, you don’t belong to them. knowing he still doesn’t look at anyone but you.
When you hang out, the way his eyes watch yours, the way they say sorry, the way you know he wants to kiss you and make all the pain go away. Trying your hardest not to cry because he refuses to become a couple together.
Being completely in love with him. and him with you.
Being best friends.
Him thinking he is not good enough, so he wants you to find someone that is.
You refusing to find someone else because you want him.
The complications. The tears. The heartache.
The feeling of love through it all.
Exact Abstract
all that matters, is today(: -
We're slowing down
Reality has caught up and we've fallen under the tyranny of time. It shows us what's behind the veneer but can we take the truth? Time, i realised, can make or break - we wait for time to tell, we wait for time to come, we wait for time to pass, then we wait for time to heal. Tumultous upheavals our lives intertwined may beget, the more this tide sweeps distance into our hearts.
Reading Week let me catch my breath, Elearning Week let me trace my steps, and now i'm back on track, in the spirit of a punk rock girl with flowers in my hair - Time mended me.
Sidenote: My korkor is coming back! (with my kate spade wallet!)
Fright Night Lights
Reality has caught up and we've fallen under the tyranny of time. It shows us what's behind the veneer but can we take the truth? Time, i realised, can make or break - we wait for time to tell, we wait for time to come, we wait for time to pass, then we wait for time to heal. Tumultous upheavals our lives intertwined may beget, the more this tide sweeps distance into our hearts.
Reading Week let me catch my breath, Elearning Week let me trace my steps, and now i'm back on track, in the spirit of a punk rock girl with flowers in my hair - Time mended me.
Sidenote: My korkor is coming back! (with my kate spade wallet!)
Fright Night Lights
Dogs in the Den
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where in the world are you when i need you
all that matters, is today(: -
In this world, everything is ephemeral. Life in itself is transient. But it is cast against a long and possibly neverending shadow of the unknown, which we immensely fear. And this fear manifests in a slew of cognitions like doubt, insecurity, paranoia. We have abandoned the privileged domain of being carefree, unbridled creatures of generality; undefined.
Eutopia sold for sins
all that matters, is today(: -
今学校の休みよ！毎日学校へ行かなくてもいいよ（：よかったね。でも、来週試験が３度あるけど、勉強しなければなりません！毎日毎日。。大変だ。今日新しい靴買ったから、ずっとうれしいですが、お金が全然ない。では、どうして時々人がよく頭がよくない？人は私と言う事です。もう二十歳ですが、子供と思います。バスに音楽を聞いて、いろいろな事を考える、話す事が少ない。ごめんなさい。
all that matters, is today(: -
Violets are blue
Roses are red
Say it isn't true
Don't tell me romance is dead
Roses are red
Say it isn't true
Don't tell me romance is dead
all that matters, is today(: -
on this cold night
i feel like curling up in bed with someone and keeping warm
i feel like curling up in bed with someone and keeping warm
all that matters, is today(: -
i smiled when i saw this
absolutely befitting descriptionyou have no idea
all that matters, is today(: -
The Atlas of Human Anatomy 3rd Edition by Frank H. Netter is a mighty good read
what a knockout, right?all that matters, is today(: -
Life is moving too fast. i feel like adam sandler in click
the only good things it brought came through reminisce
the only good things it brought came through reminisce
Love?
It's magical comfort food for the weak and uneducated
The foundation of a friendship is the best gift you can give a relationship
Heard, Understood, Acknowledged!
Here are some other amusing photos from ghosts of a more relevant past
16 sep 07
all that matters, is today(: -
I was on my way home, happily lost in abstraction
& sth stood out
Did you forget, that I was even alive
Did you forget, everything we ever had
Did you forget, about me
Did you regret, ever standing by my side
Did you forget, what we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget, about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
So now I guess, this is where we have to stand
Did you regret, ever holding my hand
Never again
We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten, about us
And at last, all the pictures have been burned
And all the past, is just a lesson that we've learned
Please don't forget us
& sth stood out
Did you forget, that I was even alive
Did you forget, everything we ever had
Did you forget, about me
Did you regret, ever standing by my side
Did you forget, what we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget, about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
So now I guess, this is where we have to stand
Did you regret, ever holding my hand
Never again
We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten, about us
And at last, all the pictures have been burned
And all the past, is just a lesson that we've learned
Please don't forget us
all that matters, is today(: -
この間二回友達と映画を見に行った。プロポサルとタイムツラーブラスワイーフを見ることがある。プロポサルはおもしろくて、楽しかったですが、タイムツラーブラスワイーフのほうが好きです。ずっと悲しかったですから、わたしはなきくよ。うれしかったけど、どうしようかな？あいつは忘れない。特に日本語の勉強するとき、彼は思い出しました。ほんとうにごめんなさい、まるまるさん。どうしようね。。最近はもうひとり友達とよく話してから、いい友達になる。しかし、こちらはあまりよくない人と思いますよ。とてもざんねんですね。かなしくなる！): 皆さんもそう思う？わからない？今、何かずっと欲しい。かぜさま、お願い！
愛のこと、だれがわかる？
愛のこと、だれがわかる？
all that matters, is today(: -
i am a private person
i don't like where things are going
i don't like where things are going
all that matters, is today(: -
Take a breath I pull myself together
Just another step until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
When I hear your voice it's drowning in the whispers
You're just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take and no matter what I do
I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand
If you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up
Cause I'll be waiting if you fall you know
I'll be there for you
I want you to know
I wish I could save you
Thanks sheng, for being there
Just another step until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
When I hear your voice it's drowning in the whispers
You're just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take and no matter what I do
I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand
If you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up
Cause I'll be waiting if you fall you know
I'll be there for you
I want you to know
I wish I could save you
Thanks sheng, for being there
all that matters, is today(: -
This describes the things we go through in Arts Club
It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye
Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye
It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye
Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye
all that matters, is today(: -
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
..
all that matters, is today(: -
things that make me run & hide in the bathroom, fiercely denying my weaknesses
all that matters, is today(: -
"drug compounds are like morals.. they degrade over time.. some are stable while some are not"
(Jansen, 2009)
(Jansen, 2009)
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I am trying not to hate myself
all that matters, is today(: -
"When you already know you want someone, how can you give yourself to anyone else?"
(Mart, 2009)
(Mart, 2009)
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Old doubt and a girl by your side
She's feeding your pride as you go for a ride down the star mile
World's rise as she lets you come in
A duo begins to the Hollywood din of the lonely
And all the gold dust in her eyes won't reform into a ring
You had and lost the one thing you kept in a safe place
Remember the face
The girl who had made you her own and how you left her alone
All's well at the base of the hill
You might need to fill a prescription to kill off the sirens
Look down from your tower on high and take in the night
Look her right in the eye
She'll listen
And all the gold dust in her eyes won't reform into a ring
You had and lost the one thing you kept in a safe place
Remember the face
The girl who had made you her own and how you left her alone
Life comes to those that'll choose the regular news
Over playing the blues with the light on
And if you burn the road that'll lead you back to her in time
I'll watch you turn to stone
Can't find the sublime
She's moving on without you
The tide breaks
You watch the stars fake
They gather you back to their homes
I guess it's better than being alone
She's feeding your pride as you go for a ride down the star mile
World's rise as she lets you come in
A duo begins to the Hollywood din of the lonely
And all the gold dust in her eyes won't reform into a ring
You had and lost the one thing you kept in a safe place
Remember the face
The girl who had made you her own and how you left her alone
All's well at the base of the hill
You might need to fill a prescription to kill off the sirens
Look down from your tower on high and take in the night
Look her right in the eye
She'll listen
And all the gold dust in her eyes won't reform into a ring
You had and lost the one thing you kept in a safe place
Remember the face
The girl who had made you her own and how you left her alone
Life comes to those that'll choose the regular news
Over playing the blues with the light on
And if you burn the road that'll lead you back to her in time
I'll watch you turn to stone
Can't find the sublime
She's moving on without you
The tide breaks
You watch the stars fake
They gather you back to their homes
I guess it's better than being alone
all that matters, is today(: -
at the crossroads once again
this is it. this is me
this is it. this is me
all that matters, is today(: -
the daggers are drawn and the duel is in play. dancing around each other, waving weapons and inflicting injuries, where do i hide? you spoiled my memories because you were trying to preach my mistakes but to me it was just grudges. can you understand that we are living in different planes, cushioned and bubble-wrapped by our own conscience to extol our nobility while negating our stupidity? your hurt always transcends mine & i'm fine with that as long as you can find a peace of mind. but sending a continuous string of messages through different technologies does not signal that you're anywhere near the finish line.
you're right, i'm not worthy of you
you're right, i'm not worthy of you
all that matters, is today(: -
i think we brought the house down at st james last night esp with shulili's attention grabbing wit and voice! she's the real powerhouse :D :D it was my first time there but i don't think i'm going back again cause of some friction with the management it wasn't all that pleasant behind the scenes ): but all went well and jo'an was just awesome she made it a blast (: now for the last leg, elections and rop
Arts Bash With Love
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Supper
give me back my dignity, you've taken it without my permission. take pity, have mercy, give me back my dignity
find it in your heart, stop your mindf
i just want you on my side like before
all that matters, is today(: -
If I were a boy, even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning and throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys, and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted and I'd never get confronted for it
Cause they stick up for me
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy, I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken so they think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful, waiting for me to come home
To come home
If I were a boy
I think I could understand, oh-oh-oohh-oh
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake, think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You got it wrong
But you're just a boy
And you don't understand (yea, you don't understand, oh!)
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Because you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy
all that matters, is today(: -
i'm losing focus, my eyes are not sharpened, i can't see myself anymore
i used to be right where you want me, now i'm falling apart, i'm all over the place
they think i'm in control, oblivious that i'm losing my way, gaunt & grey
silence like a tumour grows, nothing to keep this disease in rein
internal decadence
i used to be right where you want me, now i'm falling apart, i'm all over the place
they think i'm in control, oblivious that i'm losing my way, gaunt & grey
silence like a tumour grows, nothing to keep this disease in rein
internal decadence
all that matters, is today(: -
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIQ !!
all that matters, is today(: -
Spanning the absence of entries from june till now, i became 3 shades darker. Contrasting with other shades on different parts of my body, i'm actually a very colourful girl! (: pun intended
Arts camp & Oweek 09 was infinitely rewarding. And as the saying goes, the magic can only be understood if you've been a part of it. New roles and fresh responsibilites granted me deeper understanding of people & play, priorities & perspectives. not to mention perceptions - highly lethal silent killer. FOP culminated in rag (okay there's still bash, which everyone should go for! free advertisement coming from me) and it was a low but yee taught me that it's not about winning. i know he thoroughly understands that's why it was enlightening. miq brought me to see the KE7 float and oh my shit he's right it was orgasmic! i felt like a kid in a playground! they even had a treasure map inside the ship kldfjoisurkrkjhsdf !!! shit hot
anw i have a ton of vouchers from various unnamed goodie bags so if you would like to have a haircut at chapter 2 or a brazilian wax at a vincent-ng-endorsed parlour, please feel free to drop me a message
moving on
after a long drought of vacations, i finally got to get out of this tiny spore! taiwan is a prelude to the long-awaited japan trip but still fab nonetheless: i bought 10 pairs of shoes! & my chinese is like how ching-chong perfect now..dont cross me i'll send flying chengyus at you
photo happy time
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thinking of that day when exams ended, i just can't understand how it changed so drastically but i don't think i'll ever forget those times while they lasted because i know they were genuine. we almost made it
& thank you for being there for me last night
picking up the pieces
more than you more than you know
thinking of that day when exams ended, i just can't understand how it changed so drastically but i don't think i'll ever forget those times while they lasted because i know they were genuine. we almost made it
& thank you for being there for me last night
picking up the pieces
more than you more than you know
all that matters, is today(: -
certain things need to remain
if not, the things that changed would have no meaning
わたしができる？
最近、その人はずっと悪い。今、学校の事は全然楽しくない。実は私は全然好きじゃない！
どうしよかな?
i need to slow down or else my head will implode with thoughts that are not sorted out cause of having too many things to do
let go, you are not helping
放すよ
if not, the things that changed would have no meaning
わたしができる？
最近、その人はずっと悪い。今、学校の事は全然楽しくない。実は私は全然好きじゃない！
どうしよかな?
i need to slow down or else my head will implode with thoughts that are not sorted out cause of having too many things to do
let go, you are not helping
放すよ
all that matters, is today(: -
who does that
stand in front of the mirror and cry
all that matters, is today(: -
i'm still scared
please be gentle with me
all that matters, is today(: -
supper last night was a surprise. or rather the company was. together with yeeks yk jiade and ivan, of which the friendship links are out of this world: yee and ivan are my brother's friends (pri/sec sch classmate, jc classmate respectively), yk ivan yee are from police, yee from my japanese class, yk jiade from arts camp/oweek, jiade was my sp, ivan and jiade are neighbours, ivan is alwyn's brother! highly overlapping network circles
today was exciting & new & to be continued tmr
i like to take the bus because i can lose myself in 2 things that irrigate my life with meaning, thoughts and music.
"I'm just another writer, still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter, still trapped within my youth"
today was exciting & new & to be continued tmr
i like to take the bus because i can lose myself in 2 things that irrigate my life with meaning, thoughts and music.
"I'm just another writer, still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter, still trapped within my youth"
all that matters, is today(: -
ごちそうさまでした
皆さん、今まで 休みはどうでしたか。わたしのはぜったいに楽しかったです。毎日 欲しい事がよくしていますから、きもち良いです。でも、忙しいですね。
月曜日に 友達の家へ料理に行きました。そして映画を見て、話しました。あちらはちょっととおかったですがだいじょうぶね。。わたしたちの料理はとてもおいしかったですよ！写真が撮って、皆さんにみせましたね。その後で シンガポールの川でさんぽに行きました。夜の時、川のとなりに見る事はとてもきれいです。よかったね。
火曜日に さかえすし屋へ刺身を食べに行きました！一番欲しい食べ物ですね。
水曜日に かいぎがありましたから、早い起きました。しかし、わたしはおそかったです。ごめんなさい！ レポートはちょっとむずかしかったですから、かいぎは午後二時半に終わって、長いですね。
今日 どこも 行きませんでした。休みの休みですね (:
that was a summary of the photos in words
martina dearest girlfriend, have a safe trip there and back.. though long-distance relationships may be tough, but we still have skype that can sustain us (: i promise you won't get rejected by seven different technologies HAHA. so go there and knock yourself out babe!
things that are bugging me at this point:
i have 15 mosquito bites (and the toll is still rising)
i really need a kjsdfsiourjkfsdjkfs new phone !!
皆さん、今まで 休みはどうでしたか。わたしのはぜったいに楽しかったです。毎日 欲しい事がよくしていますから、きもち良いです。でも、忙しいですね。
月曜日に 友達の家へ料理に行きました。そして映画を見て、話しました。あちらはちょっととおかったですがだいじょうぶね。。わたしたちの料理はとてもおいしかったですよ！写真が撮って、皆さんにみせましたね。その後で シンガポールの川でさんぽに行きました。夜の時、川のとなりに見る事はとてもきれいです。よかったね。
火曜日に さかえすし屋へ刺身を食べに行きました！一番欲しい食べ物ですね。
水曜日に かいぎがありましたから、早い起きました。しかし、わたしはおそかったです。ごめんなさい！ レポートはちょっとむずかしかったですから、かいぎは午後二時半に終わって、長いですね。
今日 どこも 行きませんでした。休みの休みですね (:
that was a summary of the photos in words
martina dearest girlfriend, have a safe trip there and back.. though long-distance relationships may be tough, but we still have skype that can sustain us (: i promise you won't get rejected by seven different technologies HAHA. so go there and knock yourself out babe!
things that are bugging me at this point:
i have 15 mosquito bites (and the toll is still rising)
i really need a kjsdfsiourjkfsdjkfs new phone !!
all that matters, is today(: -
Betty Crocker Wannabes
EXHAUSTED
GOODNIGHT
GOODNIGHT
all that matters, is today(: -
month of may
i'm starting to believe that spring is magical
i don't want to be disappointed again
end of finals
i'm starting to believe that spring is magical
i don't want to be disappointed again
end of finals
we went for speed-dating
boyfriend girlfriend
lovebirds
sherm
giant beetroot
waiting for the clock to strike 12
more camering
part of the posse
yum seng with water
so that i don't time travel
kawa no tonariby the river
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY MUMMYit says, はは の ひ
❤
all that matters, is today(: -
after years of making friends in the same faculty and having gone through many examinations
year fours can be quite noisy after papers.. such a funny sight
went to bt market for fish soup and tang yuan after ssb but the tang yuan stall is closed on tuesdays!! i felt so cheated. so we decided to tapao tau huey from selegie then to chinatown for ah balling where the perfect combination of tau huey tang yuan was innovated (: it leaves you with happy thoughts and a happy heart
spontaneously
decided to さんぽ at boat quay and ended up having a drink at timbre. they had a live band that night called 531 duo and they were awesome awesome awesome but i wanted to see EIC and they only perform on saturday. choco choco is now one of my favourite drinks, next to gin with mixed berries and toasted meringue from the loof. all that chocolatey irish cream flavourr
came home slept for 3 hrs then had to wake for driving
so that was my day, now i'm going to sleep
goodnight all
year fours can be quite noisy after papers.. such a funny sight
went to bt market for fish soup and tang yuan after ssb but the tang yuan stall is closed on tuesdays!! i felt so cheated. so we decided to tapao tau huey from selegie then to chinatown for ah balling where the perfect combination of tau huey tang yuan was innovated (: it leaves you with happy thoughts and a happy heart
spontaneously
decided to さんぽ at boat quay and ended up having a drink at timbre. they had a live band that night called 531 duo and they were awesome awesome awesome but i wanted to see EIC and they only perform on saturday. choco choco is now one of my favourite drinks, next to gin with mixed berries and toasted meringue from the loof. all that chocolatey irish cream flavourr
came home slept for 3 hrs then had to wake for driving
so that was my day, now i'm going to sleep
goodnight all
all that matters, is today(: -
defining the situation is very important
attaching meanings to that definition and hence situation follows
which causes social scripts to arise (out of the commonly constructed definitions and meanings)
role identities result and further confirmation of that identity
gives you social psychology
i'm just revising......
attaching meanings to that definition and hence situation follows
which causes social scripts to arise (out of the commonly constructed definitions and meanings)
role identities result and further confirmation of that identity
gives you social psychology
i'm just revising......
all that matters, is today(: -
i'm so bored out of my mind that i'm blogging
but i guess it is a mental timeout (almost like the chocolate bar itself), a form of mental reward i bestow upon myself for having survived from 4-8 at level 4 all by myself where the temperature is not too cold and not too hot and not too stuffy (unless someone else plants himself/themselves here and contests for my oxygen that so rightly belongs to the longest dweller of the regions) and will continue to survive even though it is no shrine unlike discussion room 1 & without offerings from travellers of far and wide yes i know this is called rambling, which we are all entitled to occasionally after being so intellectually stimulated (overstimulated in fact) where it has reached the extent of analyzing clubbing activities in social psych (i'm starting to get annoyed with myself don't worry it won't last long more) with examples like aggression in bouncers, prejudice against drunkards, takers-of-advantage (cough cough), stereotypes of the scantily clad and the people who dance excessively, the conformity of people who participate in mambo, following the dance moves modelled by people on the podium thinking that they are the epitome of jive, ultimately forming the victims of informational as well as normative social influence.
that was by far the longest sentence of my verbal history
flouting ten thousand grammatical rules and laws of convolution
ekljoiweuroweiurajhsdkjfhsdkjhewiruoweiukljasdkjads
i feel the onset of anxiety, mood and dissociative disorders
mostly bipolar disorder where i alternate between manic and hypomania episodes
((((:
)))):
but i guess it is a mental timeout (almost like the chocolate bar itself), a form of mental reward i bestow upon myself for having survived from 4-8 at level 4 all by myself where the temperature is not too cold and not too hot and not too stuffy (unless someone else plants himself/themselves here and contests for my oxygen that so rightly belongs to the longest dweller of the regions) and will continue to survive even though it is no shrine unlike discussion room 1 & without offerings from travellers of far and wide yes i know this is called rambling, which we are all entitled to occasionally after being so intellectually stimulated (overstimulated in fact) where it has reached the extent of analyzing clubbing activities in social psych (i'm starting to get annoyed with myself don't worry it won't last long more) with examples like aggression in bouncers, prejudice against drunkards, takers-of-advantage (cough cough), stereotypes of the scantily clad and the people who dance excessively, the conformity of people who participate in mambo, following the dance moves modelled by people on the podium thinking that they are the epitome of jive, ultimately forming the victims of informational as well as normative social influence.
that was by far the longest sentence of my verbal history
flouting ten thousand grammatical rules and laws of convolution
ekljoiweuroweiurajhsdkjfhsdkjhewiruoweiukljasdkjads
i feel the onset of anxiety, mood and dissociative disorders
mostly bipolar disorder where i alternate between manic and hypomania episodes
((((:
)))):
all that matters, is today(: -
oh boy
no really?
yeah okay
that's it
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i miss him
he needs to stop leaving. i can't focus cause i can't help but rmb how life has been so much better with him around. then it's all over again and back to a little bit less vigour in everything. soon he'll be back but it just means he has somewhere else to go again. he needs to stop being in transit. if that's alright with the clouds in the sky. family is impt
):
no really?
yeah okay
that's it
*
i miss him
he needs to stop leaving. i can't focus cause i can't help but rmb how life has been so much better with him around. then it's all over again and back to a little bit less vigour in everything. soon he'll be back but it just means he has somewhere else to go again. he needs to stop being in transit. if that's alright with the clouds in the sky. family is impt
):
all that matters, is today(: -
mosquitoes always fly into my room
which can only mean that i will die from insecticide intoxication faster
because a mosquito-free sleep always precedes long-term poisoning, i don't know why
today
i studied from 10am to 8pm in discussion room 1, which has been hailed the shrine of Lysianity (it strangely looks like Insanity when i type it here, i don't know why either) but nonetheless is a very world-affirming, eco-friendly, anti-discriminatory, non-profitable organization. with humble origins, "it all began with a stare"
so after 10 hrs of social psychology
my msn conversation with martina had, let me count..
7
social psychology theories to do with stupid daily life nonsense we were talking about. i'll never see the world in the same way again. whether it is clearer or blurer, it's all about the subjectivity, as prof dan would point out intelligently (but as we all know, intelligence is also a social construct)
and my ankle unsprained itself miraculously!
must be the effects of the holy shrine and offerings from worshippers on their pilgrimage
thanks ya
which can only mean that i will die from insecticide intoxication faster
because a mosquito-free sleep always precedes long-term poisoning, i don't know why
today
i studied from 10am to 8pm in discussion room 1, which has been hailed the shrine of Lysianity (it strangely looks like Insanity when i type it here, i don't know why either) but nonetheless is a very world-affirming, eco-friendly, anti-discriminatory, non-profitable organization. with humble origins, "it all began with a stare"
so after 10 hrs of social psychology
my msn conversation with martina had, let me count..
7
social psychology theories to do with stupid daily life nonsense we were talking about. i'll never see the world in the same way again. whether it is clearer or blurer, it's all about the subjectivity, as prof dan would point out intelligently (but as we all know, intelligence is also a social construct)
and my ankle unsprained itself miraculously!
must be the effects of the holy shrine and offerings from worshippers on their pilgrimage
thanks ya
all that matters, is today(: -
from now on, i will mind my own business, go about my own day, take my cup of tea the way i like it. we're not victimised the way our minds set us up to think we are, but a compromise is made on our extended trajectory. No, that is not a mitigating alternative in any way, it absconds with your compass regardless. i tried to share my cookie with you but now i will have it myself
next on the agenda is that i am beginning to be more aware of superficiality, which continues to beleaguer our country's youths today (not to say the rest of the world's youths aren't afflicted) and it draws attention to what kind of a social script this would engender in the future. there are no doubts about people's over-achieving capabilities but the misappropriation takes root where the motivation stems from. Japan, always being a step ahead of us, probably encounterd this waylay before, in instances of the sarin gas attacks and other cults or cultures departing from the mainstream. seeing the comfort zone as increasingly uncomfortable
having said that, i think
skepticism is like a tumour. it grows.
it may be benign, localised, affecting only an isolated segment of your conscious and pronounced enough for easy removal. but it can also be malignant, possibly even encroaching on your subconscious. it is the viral repercussion of failure. Emotional chemotherapy would be active reflexive behaviour, where you tear your hair out and end up just as bald.
anyway
all that matters is today, essentially a reminder to recognise the importance of living in the present. it is ephemeral, it is transient. you must not let it slip by
如果不把它当成一回事，生活意义也就随它消歇
next on the agenda is that i am beginning to be more aware of superficiality, which continues to beleaguer our country's youths today (not to say the rest of the world's youths aren't afflicted) and it draws attention to what kind of a social script this would engender in the future. there are no doubts about people's over-achieving capabilities but the misappropriation takes root where the motivation stems from. Japan, always being a step ahead of us, probably encounterd this waylay before, in instances of the sarin gas attacks and other cults or cultures departing from the mainstream. seeing the comfort zone as increasingly uncomfortable
having said that, i think
skepticism is like a tumour. it grows.
it may be benign, localised, affecting only an isolated segment of your conscious and pronounced enough for easy removal. but it can also be malignant, possibly even encroaching on your subconscious. it is the viral repercussion of failure. Emotional chemotherapy would be active reflexive behaviour, where you tear your hair out and end up just as bald.
anyway
all that matters is today, essentially a reminder to recognise the importance of living in the present. it is ephemeral, it is transient. you must not let it slip by
如果不把它当成一回事，生活意义也就随它消歇
all that matters, is today(: -
have you ever heard of the elastic band theory?
here's what
it's called moodswing
(yes seems like i'm following in the footsteps of prof daniel lim, sprouting home-grown theories, probably worth as much as it sounds: social psychology of an elastic band)
here's what
it's called moodswing
(yes seems like i'm following in the footsteps of prof daniel lim, sprouting home-grown theories, probably worth as much as it sounds: social psychology of an elastic band)
all that matters, is today(: -
something to the highest degree of devastation happened yesterday on my way home. and yes it is too painful for recollection please do not feel obliged to ask me what it is. it cost me an expensive lesson in morals, values, pr, karma.. well, maybe many lessons
dysphoria served cold on a plate
10 minutes later
my moral comeback
something i can heartily recount to all of you or maybe even share on primetime news happened, also on my way home. i found a lost dog, who had golden locks, big eyes and floppy ears, possibly a cross between cocker spaniel and king charles. she had a collar and tag, but the tag only had its postal code (i'm sure everyone memorises postal code numbers in their free time) so i brought her to the nearby pet shop, which coincidentally recognized her from her previous grooming session. but after i left i realised that maybe they were pretending to help return grace(her name) while actually plotting to kidnap her and sell her off! or worse still hold her ransom!!
in the end i met a maid in the neighbourhood who was looking for grace so i went with her to the shop & there.. happy reunion (:
then i stopped thinking that i was the scum of the earth
morals and morales
all lost and found in one day
dysphoria served cold on a plate
10 minutes later
my moral comeback
something i can heartily recount to all of you or maybe even share on primetime news happened, also on my way home. i found a lost dog, who had golden locks, big eyes and floppy ears, possibly a cross between cocker spaniel and king charles. she had a collar and tag, but the tag only had its postal code (i'm sure everyone memorises postal code numbers in their free time) so i brought her to the nearby pet shop, which coincidentally recognized her from her previous grooming session. but after i left i realised that maybe they were pretending to help return grace(her name) while actually plotting to kidnap her and sell her off! or worse still hold her ransom!!
in the end i met a maid in the neighbourhood who was looking for grace so i went with her to the shop & there.. happy reunion (:
then i stopped thinking that i was the scum of the earth
morals and morales
all lost and found in one day
all that matters, is today(: -
