[+20.8.03! || 22:27]
dont say truth, say: my feelings(nonplus).
at a point in time, there seemed to be a crack in emad. getting deeper, more obvious, it was like. ea, md. when each of us would do everything in pairs, only treating each other of existence when called for. a spark of jealousy, unequality flew. but not away. as things carried on, pairs started discussing things amongst ourselves. laughing at what only the two shared. finally i told her. shiyun in specific. about this supposedly insignificant and dismissable spark that could have been the result of my oversensitivity, which was snowballing into a constant issue of my schoolife. bringing the crack to another more mentally excrucitiating point. but yet we did not see eye to eye. how it didnt seem like the way we'd have fun, double over, and over again, laughing so hard that no sound would erupt from our lips, and yet mouth so wide as if to swallow a triplelayered hamburger, with scrunched up faces of pain in the stomach and the many volleys of giggles waiting to burst out- spelling out how much joy, how many "time of my life"s we had, all because of one lame joke anymore. so many unexpected outtathisworld jokes made all the misery fly outta our lives, tickled us with its most uncanny feather of all. but as soon as the painful truths were thrown right at both our faces, the smsdispute ended. things, have not returned to as it wasnever can resume its nonchalance, mindlessness, fickleness, stupidity. a blessing in disguise, or so to speak. are you sure? i would rather the freak again, than any other moment in the world.
solely adapted from my stain on the wall, or otherwise- a really privatediary
"for once, and once only, mine."
secretly, magically mine.
all that matters, is today(: -
