[+28.12.03! || 18:08]

otdt: ^{mychristmas wentdown thedrain.}

partied with all my precioussss.
at da house.
[mylovelycheesecake!] :)
went town to watch lotr-
sold out.
skipped the schofrock.
happily went home.
rained.
it ended.
i cried.
you were happy.
your lies.
unreplied smses.
the pain.
the hurt.
the reasoning.
of xuan.
the brightening up.
only to end with gloom again.
the first time.
i realised.
the nose,
the butt.
not meant.
together.
but all.
was not lost.
i thought of you.
and proudly lifted.
my dry face.
i thought of the 5hr talk.
and it was wet again.
sought refuge.
and privacy.
under my desk.
in the corner.
still it wouldnt leave me.
the shadow of my tears.
and yours.
stupid tears.
while i suffered.
you reminisced the glory.
of the half year.
no idea i have.
as to why im sad.
because i never wanted so much.
you filled my inbox.
now what m'i to do.
when the only way-
to erase-
would leave my phone-
and life-
empty.
im wasted.


"negativity." is good.
but not 4 days from schreopens.

all that matters, is today(: -