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i just got like 300g of double choc famous amos cookies :D thank you, you! this christmas im incredibly elated because i've got the best gift ever.. my appeal got through and i thank the heavens for all of it. im just afraid it wont last long. on a brighter note, i've got many many presents after killer shopping in bangkok. and it's gonna be a hectic week as a finale.. sometimes i dread it cause i just wanna stay at home and rot (havent done that in ages) but i wanna enjoy it while it lasts. i know im probably gonna start the year feeling very very dazed and washed out but oh well orientation's gonna be a whole bunch of exciting activities to rejuvenate me so hurrah :D my brother's 21st is tmr(: im happy for him. he's gonna make it big and he promised he'd let me and my other bro help (with the drinks) OMG I REALISED I HAVENT GOT HIM A PRESENT. SHUCKS. what a heart-stopping revelation during a relaxed session of blogging. wth -.- i think i'll just get it tmr. but ive no idea what to get, as usual. maybe a... oh man it's terribly hard to think of anything considering we just went to bangkok for S H O P P I N G and he probably already has everything he needs/wants. i could just give him a big wet kiss but i guess he'll freeze in terror and go into a coma. bangkok was a good trip. cause of a reason i dont want to say out loud being afraid i'll jinx it. anyway it's gotta do with my brothers. i love them(: i've got the best brothers in the world (until sth happens that makes me change my mind. ha) they got me influenced by the GG exclamation.. and a whole lot of other dota terms which i prefer not to mention -.- in short now im just a ruined girl. and i realised i love my lil country here, singapore cause it's just so magnificent! (besides the small place and limited entertainment options and the uncouth manners of many many singaporeans which, sad to to say, im not proud of) well that's just the way it is. maybe it's what makes us unique (BS.) everything is going great now, except for some inner self conflict or whatever.. and some insatiable crave for everything beautiful i see that im trying to clamp down on. this christmas im incredibly greedy. i want so many things i think im becoming evil. it's like sth had been suppressed in me for so long that its release is just one mad rash rush. one cant want enough things and i need to find some remedy to slow it down or ease it over. maybe i should become a hermit. seal myself away from civilisation so as not to encourage deeper desire for materialistic things. what a noble thought. anyway, in case i wont be able to find the time or mood to blog again, i guess... i could... do with a new year resolution (im laughing at myself for even thinking of it) but well here it is.
1. i should stop loving for the wrong reasons
2. i should get over my greed
3. i should get into focus (soooooon.)
4. i should love myself. for the right reasons.
5. i should love toffeee more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *IMPT
6. i should bathe earlier. late bathing is unhealthy.
7. i should get a new tote bag sweater shoes shorts 2006 organiser from borders!!!!!!! refer to no.2.SIGH

doubt i'll follow it..............................GRIN(:SMIRK

all that matters, is today(: -