[+12.12.06! || 21:19]

first entry in ages again. i'm bored because no one is online and i have absolutely nothing to do. what a terrible yet precious feeling. HA. im just very bored of having nothing fun exciting interesting that i CAN do. note CAN. there're probably a ton of cool places or events to go to and pple i need/want/should go out with but i cant explain how miserable and shitty the status of my freedom has become. and i wont even try. rationing my going out is like having to eat one grain of rice per day. O_O i want to enjoy the hols! and i miss alex ): he's been so busy with trainings and all while im stuck at home banging my head on the wall. im becoming senile soon. nobody should read this cause im rambling. oh and my korkor has commissioned to be an officer! haha now he's second lieutenant HOW COOL IS THAT?! i just realised people are no better than ants. insignificant and idiotically unexciting. not to mention highly competitive given the principle of survival of the fittest in this sad, sad world. ow. ): okay nvm goodbye ants.

all that matters, is today(: -