What's been happening is nothing short of crazy and barren of anything that makes me intrinsically happy. When did the concept of school take on a you-live-&-die-alone-unseen-&-unheard outlook? The perpetrators of Columbine, I hear you. (okay maybe somewhat exaggerated and definitely not condoning the shootings) but! the atmosphere can be so vibrant that it is stifling. I'm sure Prozac Nation would be a really apt book to read right now.

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2 weeks ago I went to Hortpark (controversial outing) but more importantly, the park is really interesting, full of novel go-getting ideas. Felix was really nice to have brought me there and I appreciate it (: fireworks with wensheng last saturday and I realised that he's now at nee soon camp where the whole world (jinrui, davidson, ben) is. wen was awesome (& really accomodating) as usual, finding the best spot for us and being at the frontline to brave the tsunami of a crowd with his newly acquired combat engineer skills when we were headed back. and then we saw jordan with the whole jordan family (though i was looking for more resemblance to squirrels. jordan must have been adopted from the wild) & not to mention the other day i was at borders looking out for notebooks to splurge on when i met eagleface and nick liang. they are a very funny & gay (in both sense of the word) pair. I was on my way to meet faith but she wasn't done with school (though she would've taken the same amt of time to finish up and cross the road from smu to cathay as me taking a bus from borders there) city campus students have it better than lowlier pple like us from nus, with a high SRP count. (socially retarded pple) which sounds like snRNPs as in small nuclear ribonucleoproteins

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mui was in el lect today and i got a shock right through my carotid when i saw him i had half a mind thinking he was awol just to crash uni lect 2 years in advance. martina was just as surprised and poor mui had to deal with the omg-what-are-you-doing-here all over again. the lengths one would go to for their girlfriends. sigh!

hsu has been totally busy but i'm glad we had a chance to talk tonight. it's weird seeing all his friends(eagleface, nick, jordan, mui, wen), and his friends telling him they've seen me, but not seeing each other directly. 

& chew's been my go-to guy (like how o'malley was burke's guy) for crisis moments. thanks ya

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between fight and flight is a blind man's sight and a choice that's right

sweet sorrow is the goal tomorrow