i am waiting for a compass to point me in the right direction, to take a road that will not disappear from beneath my feet as i enjoy the sights that pass me by. i am wanting to unveil a decision that does not leave me in doubt, casting a shadow over the oasis in the desert i would have had chosen. i am trying to be happy without being afraid.
but i am thinking it feels wrong. i feel as though i'm stabbing myself all day every day. i can't seem to proceed and i can't beat a retreat.
a stuck lift.

i am fighting impossibilities while myself being impossible & it brings exhaustion with no conclusion. i wouldn't want you upset and without hope, but it's hard to say, to tell; apprehension doesn't disappear, you just hold it in your hands until it burns your skin raw.
that's what i'm trying to tell you.



the colour's focused and the picture's crystal clear

shaun quah, don't ever forget how it feels like to be happy with someone.