hoping that no one will remember this abandoned site, it might just become my safe haven for thoughts that are bubbling at the surface waiting to spill over but has nowhere to go.

i didnt think about the attacks. much as i went through the aftermath in my head, i definitely did not see this one coming. and when you got served by some of the closest around you, people whose thoughts matter to you like your life would go out of tangent if they so much as sneezed, it really does feel like the end of the world.

when you find someone and be together with that one, it's supposed to make you more complete, loved, supposed to give you the strength to conquer more obstacles and scale the mt fujis of the world. but terms and conditions apply, because geographical boundaries and timezones prevent us from sitting down and having a cup of tea together on a rainy sunday afternoon, or the fact that my diminishing will to continue can't be revived by someone whose presence is represented by suzy's teddybear.

in essence, reality has me shaken down. but i don't want to be another one who bites the dust.