What it takes to finalize: A stuffed nose, a whole day to myself and my bible, and not enough strength to put myself in this misery any longer.
What it does not take for me to crumble: A pretend-friend who pushes so hard that bones break.

Thanks to mart, kachng, my brother, just for being there when I can't do it by myself.

I still miss him like crazy.
And I want so badly to tell him that.
And I think if he asks one more time I think I might just give in.